CrystalNa's blog

Just Pretend you live inside my brains. My bad bad bad brains

This is all the Truth According to Me by Me.  It can't be the whole truth , Just the truth told from my Vantage Point.  Im just trying my hardest to pour it on to here and into you so you could see and feel how things would be if you were Me. 

LEmmE RANT!

I just want to say that the universe is completely flipped and I wonder why my "luck" is such a joke. I'm not upset I just laugh at myself and these conundrum I corner myself into. We Are musically compatible and you're very good looking but thats just not even to keep me interested ill just ignore your messages of curiosity and keep going like i didn't hear you calling me.

its okay sweets

its okay im not the best ever. today or tomorrow or even yesterday. Thats all okay im not aiming for perfection. im not aiming for anything. i just existing here with you and everyone else we know and dont know. here we are  ... we are all fight for the top and fight for our breathe and fighting for the rat race but when are we just gonna say its okay. you go ahread. its okay you dont have 2$ here ya go its on the house. ummm were probably never gonna do that .

Hit the fkn break on me

im tired of feeling like like im moviing either too slow or too fast. id really like to just stop moving in either directing and just pause ... id like to really look at who is next to me and be able to remember their face just the way it is. id like to really look at my surroundings and remember what it looks like.  i'm not going to be here forever so i'd like my memorys to last. So next time you see me or talk to me please just pay a little attention to me cause I wont be around forever 

i just need a breather  so gimmie a break.

Obviously Id pay more attention if I was interested. ive already divided up my mind into 4equal part if I  squeeze something else inside everything will be unbalanced. And I rather not do that to myself. I like being balanced me. I can balance myself on top of a crayon on top of the moon.  

Youre Welcome

 play this as loud as possible

i wish i wish i wish i wish

you know when you walk around the house with your eyes coverd and you keep bumping into the tables and chairs. You made me feel like i walked into a wall.

I wish you were a human being more like myself. and as much as i wish i wish i wish . you will never be how id like you to be or how i imagined you to be. uuuggh she was right i wasnt wasnt wasnt ready .

im not ready to be ate im still raw and rare and i still need to thaw out but if you like it rare then youll like me . 

other wise do not swallow me or else i will upset you. please dont swallow me alive and dont swallow even if I said i'm ready.  

I have to eat you first then you can eat me and meet me half way thru the intestins of my thoughts.

Shes Actually the Liar.

sure you can pull me apart but you cant ever take my mind apart. Sure you could think im a little ant but you cant ever squish me. sure you can have a little but you cant have a lot. sure you can think youre the winner but your really not 

B

I miss you Billy. This year is our year  WE'RE  going to take our lives back!...

Meet me at the L in LWD on TH. Every fkn Th for the rest of our lives

oh fooreal?

thats weird riight. Cause I never had any beef with you  I just never bothered to know you. what is that a crime?

i can feel something sending me an idea into my brain. I can feel it ring the bell on my mind and the door open and i feel the idea enter my head my brain cant unscramble the code. So I guess Ill never know the idea that came tonight. I hope it mates with my brain, lays eggs in my brains so my genes could be embeded into the eggs and once they hatch I could be able to understand these ideas inside me these foreign little creatures inside my mind. i close my two eyes and with my third i see a snake in front of me and when i start to fall asleep i hear someone say CRYSTAL!!! isnt it weird how i started to have reality disturbances all over again. Im not even on drugs anymore im almost very sober except for the wine. but why am i having these visions of snakes and why am i hearing my name being called late at night?  ideas inside me please wake up and please gimmie a hand and help me understand myself.

Am I crazy again? I guess Once Youre Crazy Youre Always Crazy :\